So. Almost 50 solar revolutions. Crazy shit. 1-18… Fairly normal rambunctious precocious youth. Fair to middlin smart, mostly likeable… 19-30 something… Increasingly further off the rails… Complete wreck culminating in alleged diurnal periods as an involuntary ward of the state… 30-almost 50… Adulting. Seriously. Mostly like a boss. Starting from zero, building a life (depending on parameters of definition). Solid job. Exceptional spouse. Minimum mayhem. Then there’s now. 

When did now start? Increased awareness. Self, others, environment… Position check. Where the fuck am I?